Susana (2) - Learning to detach

[Complex]

Susana:
You're a great woman. Don't forget that you are worth something.
I kept forgetting that. And when you do, your H subconsciously notices too and it'll make you less attractive.
I know you have to heal right now, and learn about everything that's happening. That is good bc the faster you do that the faster you'll be able to detach for real.
I'm getting to the point where I KNOW whatever I do right now, it's going to change absolutely nothing. I have to completely let go. I have to 100% accept who W is and how she is acting. She is gone, I have to build my life without her.
This is very hard...you think you're there, but you're not. I think this process of healing takes a very long time. But I know without it our R will never ever exist.
I'm afraid it's just going to end in a friendship too.
But one thing I know, which hurts, that I love my W. I love her with all my heart.
And I'm crying writing this bc I know it's a love that's not meant to be right now, and probably never will. And I have to let go.....you see? The way I'm writing, I'm still attached. But it's a good sign if your love turns into sad understanding that's it's something that just doesn't work out.

Google for "relationships with emotionally immature people"...do you see yourself in that text?


I'm telling you all this and asking you because I see myself in a female version in you, the things that you write, your feelings and emotions. A lot of parallels.