Old dog seeks new trick 7

[Old Dog]

Bless you for thinking of me. I am so grateful to all of you. I know have my best interests at heart.

I am trying to decide what's best for me and especially for the boys. I think I've got to the point where I don't care what WAW does. She's so blinkered and focused on one thing that she won't consider any alternative. For one one who studied to be a counsellor herself for a year back in the day, it is is incredulous that she should not be more open to alternatives. Hey ho.

ganb8te, I think you're right about yoyoing between two places. I was just going to say perhaps I should try a trial separation but then is that just half measures again? Putting off the big decision.

I feel as though I have no power and complete inability to analyse the situation properly and make a decision. I want someone to do it for me, but not her. I know no one will and she may even do so. I have to somehow summon the strength myself.

I would like to stay for the boys sake and also to prove I can GAL and be the best I can be. When I eventually get a job near here, I will be able spend more time on developing local GAL activities and cut out the your behaviour. Self doubt though rears its ugly head at regular intervals.

It's been another night of bad sleep which doesn't help either.