Broken Heart...What now?

[TLEE86]

Hey Pink, glad to hear from you. Just a couple thoughts...

I want the LS instead of a divorce just to make a point, that's all.

It will give me some independence, some peace of mind, some peace in my heart. I need this, I need to stop the roller coaster insanity and start having a life again

Ok be very careful with this. And really ask yourself WHY do you want the LS. To make a point, IMHO, is not a good answer. Why do you feel that you cant have independence, peace of mind/heart, have a life without a LS? GAL can be done whether M, S, LS, or D? Why do you want this LS? If it is truly to protect your finances and your kids, then by all means I think it is a good thing. But if it is just to make a point, Id ask that you re-think this.

I feel very regretful I gave my kids such bad father. He is never been very present and now he withdraw totally just because he is having this great adventure.

Things will change, they must change once for all.

Ok first, stop this thinking. You did not give your kids a bad father. Your H did that all on his own. Your job now is to continue to be a good mother. Let H worry about being a good father. If he steps out of line, then you can help fix that but as far as being a bad father, thats on him.

You sound like you are desperate for something, ANYTHING to happen. Again, Id really ask you to reconsider and ask yourself why are you doing what you are doing i.e. LS. If it is just because you are tired of this, please think it over. Don't do anything drastic simply because you are desperate for change. Ask what you really want.

Once all this paperwork is ready, I want to start planning the things I want to do, the things I can do and the things I can afford to do.

Pink, why do you feel like you have to do this before you can start GAL? You are clearly hurt and having a bad day/week. But please please please, don't use this filing of LS as an excuse to start GAL or do things just for you. Because I guarantee you, if you do, you will find yourself right back in this place...

I hope you have a better day tomorrow Pink. Truly look at your sitch and ask yourself what you are doing and why, and if its for the best for YOU and your kids. Praying for you Pink...try and find something this weekend to occupy your mind and get it off H. I promise you, things are not as cheery as they may appear to be for him. What are you doing for the Superbowl this weekend? Are you a Seahawks or Patriots fan?