Old dog seeks new trick 7

[Old Dog]

Can't sleep. My mind is full of retribution and the pillow is too soggy. The other side of the bed is empty and I don't know where she is or if she's with OM.

And then I get to thinking. What would Chuck say?

He would say 'how would she expect you to behave'?

Well based on today's performance she would expect me to be angry, glowering, simmering, silent, resentful. You get the picture.

So how about I don't do that? Oh actually I've not done that for months and she's fine with me being happy, having a PMA etc so that doesn't really work either.

OK. I don't think she'd expect it if I wasn't here and didn't come back. And then said I'm reducing my financial input. But what's the motivation for that? Will it backfire? Do I care?

Am I actually able to make a decision about anything anymore? I'm so tired, maybe I can't. What am I wibbling about? Ha, that came out as wobbling snout before I changed it.