I'm sorry man, I wish I could offer you as much help as everyone else here. Just man to man, keep your head up. I'm only 2 weeks into this and i HIGHLY recommend going to a doctor asap. I struggled my *** off for 2 weeks before sucking up my pride and getting some meds for panic/anxiety/depression. Just keep your head up and tackle each day as it comes. Good luck and as hard as it might be, try to think positive thoughts. No matter what happens, you WILL come out the other side a better person.
My thread has a ton of great info if you're still on moderation and need some helpful advice.
