I'm just utterly gutted right now :(

[Frank75]

She called me from work a few minutes ago. I guess she was still upset about this morning so she apologized for filing the papers and explained why she did it (goes back to me not listening to her before).

So the phone call basically ended up as me moving out in a few weeks, us remaining friends and we'll hang out a few times a month, and calling this a separation because time apart will be good for us at this point since right now living together is just too emotional and volatile. She paid $300 to file for divorce so she said she'll leave it active "just in case" but for right now she's just considering it a separation.

We even discussed how an apartment in the city would have been good for us regardless, either to use together when we want to go out to dinner/movies etc or just as a way for either of us to "get away" for a few days

I feel like that 30 minute phone call i just had with her was way more productive than any face to faces we've had over the last few weeks. I told her about the DR book also and she agreed to read it so that's good.

Don't get me wrong though, i'm still carrying that mantra: "Trust nothing she says and half of what she does". I can not be hurt like this again.