I'm just utterly gutted right now :(

[Frank75]

SO glad to hear you went to the doctor and got the medicine, I could hear the anguish in your writing and I was worried about you. It's a rough place to be, you're less than 2 weeks in. Hopefully the meds will take some of the pain and anxiety away, and allow you to think more clearly and focus on a plan to GAL. Have you booked the tickets to your parents yet? It might help just knowing it's booked and on the horizon - something to look forward to.

I can't remember the names of what she gave me but it definitely works. I'm still depressed but not a ball of stress/nerves/panic anymore

I'm going to try and call again today about counseling, once i know that date i'm going to get plane tickets

In other news she told me that she filed for divorce last night despite us talking previously about that. She said she "didn't want to lead me on", so i got upset with her and she cried for once and told me something about having 3 months before it takes effect blah blah blah.