Seperated and she is with someone - I'm desperate

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Thank you Sandi. I guess I would say my fear is based on the deep love I have for my W since she was a girl. I have always thought she was unique and special but I admit that I didnt do a good enough job of making her feel this way. At this time I cannot imagine a life without loving her and seeing her face yet this is what I am curently faced with.

I agree I do need to be stronger and I am absolutely unattractive to her. I currently have no self confidence as is obvious with all the begging and pleading I have done for months. I appreciate this forum as the friends I do have and are aware of the issue wonder why I don't just move on, it's not as simple as saying you'll stop loving someone and go find someone else. Maybe in today's day and age that is where things are but I am more traditional and believe in the vows I took and the commitment I made to love her forever. Maybe that makes me a fool. It certainly makes it more painful and has contributed to my thus far desperation and pathetic attempts at trying to make her love me.