I find myself dancing on the tightrope lately ... accepting I am single and yeah .. there are options .. I am not ready, but there are certain parts of my forming a mutiny line about to overthrow "El Loco" who is in charge.
Seems you have this new found freedom and are conflicted with it all ... I am no therapist ... but I can relate to that part of you. Late night after gigs .. even during I have "chances" ... I would be lying if I have not gone to the darkside just in thought ... may even .. dare I say flirt .... just to know what it feels like, missing that rush for so long. My halo has a ding or two just like anyone else ... don't be so hard on yourself ... HG is an ego boost to a point right?
