I thought about it last night as I had one of my better prayer sessions. Truly giving her and your M to God .. I mean really getting there is not as easy as it seems .. atleast it wasn't for me. I am really close ... even with D on the horizon I know His plan is better, He needs some time with my W and it appears I need to be out of the way. Who knows where it ends ... but I know He wants a better life for me.
Love the dress ... I have always been a sucker for the little black dress .. not sure who on this earth wouldn't be ... and doing it for you ... Heck yeah ... we all need to treat ourselves and refill that ego bucket that was knocked over with the MLC vengeance truck.
Something I wanted to pass on to you yesterday but reading what I wrote I realize I glossed over it. The "Monster" ... you have seen her and no doubt when she comes back she will be all over the place and spinning soon. The thing that I had to learn ... though the very kind people her told me and it never sunk into my thick skull .... in her MLC mind, she is forming the illusion that its you in the way of her happiness. She is currently doing and saying things out of character to try things and find that happiness. The more she tries and fails .. the more the focus becomes you ... hence that beating of the drum .. detach .. GAL ... I have found the 180's you should do for yourself, my W notices them but its not like they make a difference NOW ... maybe later they will weigh in more .. who knows .. that fog is thick. Just food for thought ... and something for you to think about so the spew sessions aren't so personal.
