Prayer Circle

[Jer2911]

My prayers for my sitch have changed so much over the past 3 months. Thanks to a wonderful spiritual counselor I am learning how to pray more like Jesus so that my prayers are less selfish and less from my ego. I still don't think I am praying as perfectly as I can, but I also trust that God knows what is in my heart even if I am not articulating it as clearly as I should when I pray.

Here is what I am currently praying on a daily basis:

Thank you Lord for all of the blessings you have given to me and my family in this life. We have all been blessed beyond measure and I trust that you will continue to bless us even as we struggle through this dark time in our lives. I trust that you have a plan and a future for us even if we are unable to fully understand what that is right now.

Heavenly Father I pray that you will save W's soul and that you will heal everything inside of her that is so broken right now. She is your child Lord and I know that you love her even more than I do. Please be with her now and call her to you so that she can feel, hear, and see the path that you have for her, so that she can find her way back to you, and so that she can understand your Will for her and for our marriage.

Lord, please guide her through the fog and through the tunnel. Be with her Lord as she goes deeper into the darker areas of the tunnel, and give her the strength, tools, and wisdom to deal with her demons and issues that are causing her to make hurtful choices. Give her the strength, tools, and wisdom to make her way out of the tunnel towards a healthier life. She is in so much pain right now and she is causing pain to everyone in her life as a result. Be with her Lord and help her move through this tunnel so that she can be free from those demons and able to live with an open heart.

Lord, I also ask that you continue working on me. My heart and soul are open to you. Please help me to understand your path for me and your Will for me and for our marriage and family. Help me to accept your Will and give me the strength, courage, patience, wisdom, sense of peace, and sense of grace to follow this path and do your Will.

I am your child and I know that you love me even when I falter. I am struggling Lord and I need you to walk with me giving me the strength to get through every single moment. Help me to become the person you need me to be in this life. Help me to be the mother, partner/spouse, friend, daughter, and sister that you need for me to be in this life. Help me to be an instrument of your love, your light, your peace, and your grace in this world for all who I encounter.

Heavenly Father, I also pray that you will place a hedge of protection over our family. The enemy is trying so hard to destroy our family and I ask that you protect us as we continue through this trial in our lives.

Lord, please minister to OW's heart as well. Help her to see your Will for her life. She is really a very sweet young woman, and I do believe she will hear your voice in her heart and soul. Help her to see how my W is hurting her with this A, and help guide her to something better for her life.

Lord, I also ask that you continue to work in the lives of all of the LBSs and MLCers who are struggling today. Give all of them the strength, courage, wisdom, sense of peace, and sense of grace to live according to your Will for their lives. Please give the LBSs guidance with regard to their choices and decisions related to their lives and their marriages. Please help the MLCers move forward through their tunnels and open their hearts, minds, and souls to you and your Will for their lives and their marriages.

Heavenly Father, my marriage right now is broken. It can only be healed through you and your ability to work miracles in our lives. I am placing my marriage at the foot of the cross and I humbly pray that my marriage will be restored if it is your Will. Help me to have patience and to accept your Will regardless of the outcome. I trust that you are working on both me and my W to help both of us follow the path and Will that you have for each of us individually as well as your Will for our marriage. On Earth as in Heaven, Thy Will be done.

Walk with me today Lord as I go through my daily routines and business. Give me the tools and the strength that I need today to be the best possible mother, partner/wife, and friend.

In the name of your Son Jesus, I pray these things and I trust that you are always with me Lord. Thank you for all that you have given me and all that you continue to give me in this life.

Amen.

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This is truly the hardest moment of my entire adult life, but I do believe in the power of prayer and have seen it work other miracles in my life. This horrible experience has turned me back towards God and my faith in such a profound way... I have never placed so much faith in God in my adult life, and I do believe that this is all part of His plan to draw me back to Him. It sure would be nice if He could have called me back with something a little less painful, but perhaps it takes something this painful for us to hear Him calling us back.

I will continue to all of you in my prayers as well. God can work miracles...