Part 10 - Contents may prove volatile

[Ggrass]

First ones gone, animals done. Dark as pitch.

Cold too. Pretty sure the fast racing hound wants his jacket on. The others are too busy pan licking the bowls and playing musical bowls to care.

Mmm nearly 10. Got an hour to be tuck in.

Perhaps another coffee, have low blood pressure and they say caffeine helps elevate it.

[edz]

Yup eating more salt is also a dietry one and lowering alcohol consumption (boo). If you can raising the head of your bed by ~4 inches can help as well.

Coffee 2 now... missed caffeine when sick mon/tue/wed

[Ggrass]

4 inches, where looking shifty around....

Where?

I am having some pretty bad/ strange dreams atm let me tell you. I guess that will just add to them.

[edz]

Ha! I.should.have.known !!!

You devil.

I.e. raise the top (headboard) end of your bed!

[edz]

Sorry to hear about the bad dreams, strange is ok often interesting bad..never so

[Ggrass]

Well tha last was the tall cute dude, but he was 20 feet tall I was clinging to his large leg like a toddler but was full grown. Like being shaken off, clinging.

Yeah, I know full of Freud hints! It was nasty odd feeling waking up. I never dreamed of people I met or knew, well rarely. Now it's all the time. Which is odd.

My nightmares was always radars of the lost arc snake pit! Awful.

[edz]

da da daaa daaaaa da da daaaaaa...

no?
oh ok

dreaming of tall cute dudes eh (ahem)

Seriously doesnt suprise me ive had lots of dreams of people i know esp w in mixed up scenarios over the past months, e.g. im out with someone special to me (dont ask me it was a dream no idea gf/nw?) and in walked wife who said oh hello and i woke up feeling discombobulated completely.

I think it was either your thread or toots and i said the brain just spin drying out too many thoughts, worries, fears and wants and we end up with bizarre mixes.

A dream smoothie.

What gets me is how clear they are, never really remembered dreams before all this, now quite vivd sometimes.

[Ggrass]

Yeah, I get the whole vivid.

I jut can't seem to work out what's ok, funny huh?
H said I was tough, uncompromising and set.
Doesn't fit now, chucks crap in bin.

I think sorting thru what you want is the hardest.
I don't want to rule out new things or new people just because I'm judgemental or hasty.

Also negative comments that don't seem to fit anymore. Slowly learning not to knee jerk.
I think that's why I'm not bouncing back when things don't quite go to script.

My minds slowed down and turned to mush. They say a pscyh Injury does that, scrambles your brain.

[edz]

Nah no mush going on in your thoughts matey, everything you've said here is perfectly clear. You're right and I've had similar feelings on ok if w doesnt work out what's next?

I mentioned a friend of mine pushed up a dating profile for me, he sent me the links that came in (have told him please stop at the mo) but it was interesting looking at the limited access (havent paid for a subscription obviously) information on those who'd pinged/winked (whatever) at me. Do sometime think going for a platonic drink etc would be very nice indeed but not this way..yet for me.

For you the sitch is different and I totally get you wanting to grab a coffee (remember we're not talking you jetting off around the world here and I checked but Fabio still isnt around) and chat. I also get why thats a huuuuuge change from situation normal and the number of questions and doubts it must raise.

My advice, for what its worth, is go with the flow. When you see rhc/other guy what do you feel? Want to chat? Chat, or say hey I really want a coffee at lunch (etc) what you up to, if they're busy raincheck? Or similar anyway.

Our Gg is in control of herself, she's not taking anything from anyone now and is her own pilot. You decide the course my friend

[Ggrass]

All of the guys in a way I'm toying with, sticking a toe in the water.

I feel giggly girlie and ten years younger.

You know what?

It's really nice to feel like a human, one that could be attractive. I haven't heard any positive comments in so long, they startle me.

Rhc said I was lovely.

Later I cried, that nice comment, combined with h spew via a laywer.

I think the whole icing thing, makes good sense.

You do sound happier edz. Yes, we are all in control even when we don't feel like we are.