I watched "Fireproof" about 3 weeks ago. Some of the things in that movie seemed uncomfortably familiar. For instance when Caleb yelled at his W. I did that and it was almost exactly the same way. I was able to see how I was acting toward my W. It brought tears to my eyes. My W is so shutdown and has closed her spirit to me. I am afraid she will never open her spirit back up. The D will be final next week. It is hard to accept. I appreciate you praying for my W and me. I will do the same for you.
Oh, thank you, please do pray for us! That's great that you saw Fireproof -- that's what started me on my journey, it revealed to me all I did wrong and also how I could give myself over to forgiveness and love even if I was rejected again and again.
A divorce is not the final word! Many many people go through that fire in order to realize that it was the wrong choice. Listen to the testimonies that just were posted here --
And she posts A LOT of testimonies that relate to divorces that later resulted in restoration. I know that many people on this site advise folks to move on; I am one for total commitment to standing. You can work on yourself and keep your vows even if she is not ready to come back. Believe me, I am on my knees DAILY. Sometimes I have to run down to the church four times in one day when I am especially haunted or when my H is being especially bad to me. I pour my heart out and cry and cry. God always gives me what I need to stay clear on what my path is, and always shows me that he is working to soften my husband's heart.
I also have listened about nine million times to the sermon called, "Don't Give Up" which you can find here --
There have been days when I just listened to that over and over, all day.
I know what you are suffering, I am so sorry for your pain. Just remember we are there with you, we are all suffering for a higher purpose, and our suffering is building us into something better. Your wife is suffering too, and she will until she forgives you! I know from experience that carrying anger is very painful. I actually think that my really uncontrolled anger toward my husband, that constant resentment and blame and fury, caused my tumor -- that tumor even LOOKED like anger on the sonogram.
You can be the light to her even if it takes a much longer time that you ever thought you could bear!
Last edited by Gerda; 01/30/1506:14 AM.
I believe I will see the bounty of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord with courage. Be stouthearted, and wait for the Lord.
