I'm just utterly gutted right now :(

[Frank75]

Thanks for the encouragement man, it means a lot. I'm in the process of trying. I'm calling a counselor that my dr referred me to today and trying to make plans to fly out to visit my parents. My dr thinks it's a great idea for me and to give me wife 2+ weeks of solitude.

Frank - so glad you are going to visit your parents. Use the time wisely away from your wife, to work on yourself (you might want to think about whether you'll have any contact with her while you're away - or if you're going to "go dark"). And enjoy your time with your parents, hope you can open up to them.

Thanks Susana. I think the pills the doctor prescribed will really help with that. Before yesterday i was honestly having full blown breakdowns multiple times a day. I was just so emotionally raw even commercials where making my cry. These pills seem to have taken a major chunk of that away, and i'm so thankful for finally going and getting them. I don't know how i lasted 11+ days in that state of mind, it was ridiculous.