genuinely i didnt have any expectation on the letter getting any response - to be honest i'm pushing my expectations to think she even read it.
I expected the cold email but it still hurts. I was also hoping to have moved the money before she asked for it but its one of those things.
Last week even with all the move going on my wife was a bit more chatty and on move day reached out a little about how difficult it was.
A saturday night drinking with her poisonous friend and she is back to barely civil. between her need to make me the bad guy and the poison that is her friend and sister its quite easy to make even a friendly hello seem mean and controlling.
I dont forget that this whole situation stems from my atrocious reaction to a couple of situations a few years ago and so I do understand where her fear came from and how it warped her perception of our interaction, I just know that the fear wasn't rational - but when is fear.
As for my anger I'm trying to find different releases but the big problem is that i got really cross with D3 over nothing in particular this morning (she wouldnt put her tights on). I felt awful and apologised to her but its not fair that my misdirected anger upset my little girl. Its just not on, but until that happened i thought i had processed and released my anger better than it seems i have.
Both mid 30s, 2 young kids BD 7sep14 XW moved on long ago, now living with OM1 D paperwork in progress
