Part 10 - Contents may prove volatile

[edz]

Hi toots

I know exactly what you mean my friend. On the surface I have no reason to be down tonight but I am. Yes money is a big issue and its unlikely to change short term but the important things of short term r with w and my r with s are both on good terms.

The thing is I know about "it" I know w was purposeful and serious about "it" but I have no idea (god this is a tricky line to walk) if "it" is long term short term or even if she'll follow through. But I know "it" means no us.

I do wonder will she raise it with me but there are very good reasons she wouldn't and to be honest at this point from her perspective there's no reason to.

From one angle I just wish I didn't know. From another I won't get blindsided.

Sorry all I know the above is so much gibberish. Just helps to journal it at least as best I can.