train, 25yrs, others who kept up on my sitch

[twinmom]

Thanks train. I needed to hear that.
I used to feel so powerful before I met H. I used to feel like it didn't matter what other people thought.

I have become so meek and influenced by others perceptions of me. I struggle trying to find my inner "bi!#h" and some attitude.

I need to get back to exercising, I think that REALLY helped and I still have so much weight to lose.

25yrs, I get what you are saying about love. He does loving things for me all the time. If my love language were acts of service my love bank would be running over.
My love language is physical touch and he NEVER touches me anymore. So I am miserable because I crave the physical touch and don't get it but logically know that he loves me in some way because of all the things he does for me.