Oh Vlubber I'm so sorry. I wish I had wonderful hopeful things to say to you. This is actually my first post on this forum and I've been skimming through the posts here and I just feel so bad for you. I wanted to say that I've had problems with my marriage for a long time and we have separated twice. The first time he walked out and I felt just like you do. I cried and cried and thought I would die. I did as you describe, called him constantly crying and begging him to come home. After a few weeks, I quit calling and he began to make some efforts at reconciliation. In time, and just when I felt stronger and was starting to get my life back, he did come back but it was never the same. My point is it is NOT the end for YOU. It might be the end of the relationship, who knows, but your life will go on. There's a thread on here which lists 37 (or is it 27?) steps. Please follow those. If there's a chance for reconciliation it will only happen if you follow those steps. I know because even though I didn't know about divorce busters back then, those where the things I started doing and it was only when I started doing those things that he came back.

Please take care of yourself, try to eat a little every day and get a bottle of Tylenol PM for sleep at night. You need your rest. All is not lost, you are not alone, there are many like you out in this world.


Me: 56
H: 60
M: 32 yrs
Not separated, I am seriously thinking of leaving
Sons: 3, all grown