Part 10 - Contents may prove volatile

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One thing re-reading that back (cant edit now) I do still love her, but its softened, the harshness and hurt has gone its now more a longing for moments together or for a long gone relative, if - as Jim asked - we did just drop it and call it a day apart from co parenting I do believe I could heal and move on - I'd even be happy with platonic female company now. There's obviously more, I miss the (now long ago before bd) intimacy and how good we were together at those times, the closeness and warmth but that, that I can deal with.

W closes down and pushes toward co parenting and I'm detatched and happy and start to move toward dropping it all and moving on to just being a co-parent to s, then she comes back with hints of who she was many years ago small things that we always said or did or coffees or her sad face if she wants s and i to wait while she gets something from a shop and I'm hooked on again. Some of it, I know, isnt me it's her need to be with s. Then theres the "thing" which (I wont go into but) shouts out MLC..

The really daft thing is 99.9% of the time (when Im not sick) I'm happy upbeat and would indeed say ok lets look at these dating results then something, imperceptable, happens with w and Im back to wondering can Humpty be put back together?

Opens famous box he's waffled at everyone about, puts in the various questions, puzzles and big hairy screaming rampaging "thing" and closes the lid.....

Time to take time....