I need to vent. I hate H right now. My life feels in total flux. I'm having trouble working and am behind on several projects because I keep thinking about my sitch. Normally working would take my mind off of it, but it's really hard to work from home with two little ones running around, whom I adore, but when I bring up to H that I'm a little stressed he immediately runs down the list off all the days he comes to help (3) and all the days his mom comes. (1 day about every other week.)
I know that I'm also tired from the meds. My doctor has me on zoloft, ativan and a sleep aid. I just feel blah. There's no one who really cares about me except my children and my job is to care for them and love them unconditionally. I am SO lonely right now though!!!!!
Enough pity party... I just logged onto a local babysitting website and renewed my membership so I'll be getting new sitters in my area to interview soon. And I put word out via a mom's group I belong to through FB that I am looking for a full-time job. Figure it could be another way to network and I've seen other women get jobs through the group. Going to bed early to hopefully be able to get up and get some work done before the kiddos get up tomorrow.
One more thing—these are my goals for the year: Land a full-time job in my field. Make enough to cover the mortgage so the kids and I can stay in the house. It's a cute little ranch that's actually perfect for a mom and two kids, and I love this house. Before I was on medication and we first moved here, I was freaking out about all the repairs it needed and constantly complained, which H reminds me of regularly when I mention something I like about the house or something I'm enjoying about it. Get back into shape
Last edited by Lorelai; 01/29/1503:24 AM.
Me: 38 H: 43 Kids: 2,4 T10 M6 BD: 1/14 11/14: H moves out
