When I went through my first divorce I said it was like my life was a crystal ball and it fell and shattered. I had to try to put those shattered pieces back together with no instructions. In my experince a big part of the this comes from the fear of the unknown. Once you have a separation agreement in place it will at least ( hopefully) give you some solace knowing you have some stability financially.
The last thing I wanted was to go through a second divorce. Thankfully I maintained my financial independence. Although my ex does owe me a big chunk of $ still. My ex is also behaving like a teenager. His 13 yr old daughter now is suffering because of it. I feel your pain.
No contact does help. You sound empowered. Keep it up!
Me 52 H 44 T9 M 5 BD 12/11 H split 8/12 OW moved in 12/12 OW gone for good 6/14 We get closer again 9/14 SD 13 Me 4 Grown
Accept what is...let go of what was and have faith in what will be.
