Hello to all of you that came to my rescue during this horrible time. The pain is unbearable but I am slowly gluing my pieces together and becoming whole again.
H tried to contact me a few times last week, last Monday (this week) he called and left a message saying "Hi, it's H, I don't want to disturb you but I am just trying to find an opportunity to talk to you before I leave the country. I will drop some milk bottles later today. No big, sorry to disturb. Bye".
I ignored it. Won't talk to him this week. Let him go on his two weeks trip to Brasil, my birth country. I won't make his pain easy on him, I won't hear his excuses or him imposition on D. I do not need to have any contact with him besides anything related to our kids. So, go have some fun H, I am gone.
I still don't know why he insist in talking to me. It's very clear he does not want to be married to me anymore. He also knows that I won't make any agreement with him right now. He probably feel so guilty that he can't stand to be in the dark right now. And then I think... too bad H, go deal with your own life right now and leave me along.
Ah, and one more thing. H dropped the milk bottles inside the milk container at the front door of our house. Can you believe that he dropped off the bottles and did not talk to his kids? H didn't see the kids for a whole week and then he is at the door, he has the key and he does not go in and say hi to them. Who is this psycho that used to live with us?
When I got home I checked the milk box, then I asked the kids if dad had stopped by and they said that no, they think that he didn't came to the house. I did not say anything to them.
But in the same time, I feel really angry that he is behaving like this. He is basically making it so easy to forget.
But, so far the boys and I have life as usual. Have been very busy at work, doctors apts for all of us, papers for the legal separation, going to the gym, will go dancing again on Friday, schedule eye doctor to get new contact lenses, schedule time to color my hair and do some highlights, Need to shop for a legal separation meeting new dress and shoes.
I will start posting on my friends treads, I feel really happy I found this board, it's like never being alone.
