Well, not much happening in my sitch lately. Since my chat with H 10 or so days ago, we've had NC. I have been pretty busy. Done lots of bookshop volunteering as the boss is away this week. Also enjoying my new yoga class, have continued with aqua aerobics and calligraphy....working, looking after Mum etc..
Had a chat with my boss today. He has decided to let their other freelancer go, but he thinks there should be work for me for some months to come - good news for me. I have been writing some HR policies for them (my field). But their finance director liked my (policy writing) style and suggested I may want too help them out too...Good news, because she was querying his expenditure on 'me' recently.
Goodness me, there seem to have been bombs dropping all over the forum recently. Maybe that's usual for January? A few people have written about '6 monthers' and I identify with the comments. I do think you start to turn a corner at this point. For me, as H & I have so little contact, it is easier not to feel 'attached.' We have had no R as such, for a good while now. And part of me finds it hard to even imagine being M to him again. If he were sitting here on the couch smiling at me, that might be different though.
I have also got to the point where I feel less 'in crisis' and am enjoying aspects of my single life. I feel lonely sometimes, but I think you just need to keep connecting with others, and planning things, doing GAL etc. It is nice to only have 'me' to think of for a while.
So, I guess I'm doing okay for now - but I'm also conscious that 'my turn' is probably just around the corner.....
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus
