You are concentrating on her and OM again. You need to forget what they are doing and work on you. My wife yesterday mailed me to say she wants to take our D8 on holiday in April with her brother and his family. (without me of course) Now this was a punch to the stomach as we have never holidayed apart. I cheerily just replied that its fine. Let me know the dates. I'm sure she would have been expecting me to rise to it. But I wont take the bait.
The same thing got mentioned last summer when we were already in deep trouble. At that point i'd said over my dead body. So that is a big 180. I haven't mentioned it what so ever.
Forget what she is doing and OM. Its not in your control
Me:40 W:35 D:8 T:13 M:10 WAW: 7/14 PA Discovered: 1/15 at least 6 months Moved out and moved on