Inside my chrysalis 11

[Lorelai]

SS, you are going to be OK. I know exactly what you're feeling. I wake up like this a lot. In fact, my doctor temporarily prescribed me sleeping pills so I wouldn't constantly wake up in a panic and not be able to go back to sleep. In the book happens all the time the author said she would never have gotten through her divorce without ambien. Might be something to try.

I'm looking for a good job too. I've started putting a ton of feelers out there. I know it's easier to find something if you know someone. In fact, I'm slowly opening up a little to colleagues now about the situation so they understand the urgency of my needing full-time employment in my field. Not sure if you're a Seinfeld/Curb fan, but I laugh a little sometimes because it makes me think of what Larry David would do in this situation. He would totally use it to his advantage to get out of events he didn't want to attend, etc. I'm not saying be manipulative, it's just a thought that makes me laugh during this icky situation.