MLC = my last chance

[123Gwen]

Thanks everyone. My friends think it is nuts that I told him I forgive him. I haven't forgotten and the consequences of his choices have still hurt me deeply but I feel like one year should not define a relationship that was loving and solid for over two decades. I keep struggling with the entire concept of forgiveness. It means different things to different people. One friend said I was giving him a "hall pass" and yet I think he is suffering more than I am.

MLC is a label that implies "hall pass" for bad behavior. On some level husband knew what he was choosing. I just believe he had no real idea of the fall out. Now he does and if I don't offer him a sliver of a chance to at least have an amicable relationship then I am just as selfish as H and the OW. I want to save my marriage but regardless of the future I will not destroy the man I married. I couldn't live with myself. I am not trying to be a martyr but merely trying to find some grace.