I feel the way I do about him because of his interactions with you and your daughter. Just some stuff that sticks out to me, ya know?
I told you that I wanted to be able to look back and see some things. They were these..I wanted to know I did nothing to cause harm to the relationship he had with our son. I wanted to see that I walked this with courage, strength, dignity and honor. I wanted to know that I did everything I could to save my marriage as long as it wasnt at the expense of me and I wanted to find my worth.
I am not telling you that divorce is the answer for you at this time. That is a decision only you can make. I have seen marriages come back from some horrific things.
Only you know what your line in the sand is. I am, however, telling you that you need to protect yourself financially and emotionally. You have worked too hard to get to here.
And I dont want you to feel badly about denial. We can accept what we need to when we can. When there is love involved, it makes that harder.
I can feel you gathering your strength, S. Good for you. Do what you must to be able to act from that place. If it takes a few days, then so be it. As I said, you dont owe him anything.
