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[Calibri]

Ok ya'll, I feel so manic right now. Please bear with me.

I need support. H surprisingly agreed to meet me tonight to talk about the time sensitive matter (shocked the hell out of me, I asked for a phone call or in person -- he said in person. I'll roll with it, until he backs out) (IE: me letting him know I filed for separation, and to clarify how he would like to get the paperwork). I know this is a little odd as I had to pull the trigger first and most of us are on the receiving end of the news I'm about to give to my H.

Having said this -- how do I do this? What do I say? I want to be totally DBesq. I want to do this in a dignified manner that leaves the door open for either of us, should we want to revisit down the road. We have eight months before we can file for D.

For some reason, I am caught up in the delivery of this. I think it's because I honor and respect him enough to talk to his face. And while he doesn't necessarily deserve the respect that I'm giving him.....I was was raised better than this. I am better than this. And I'm not going to stoop to his mothers/his level.

On the plus side, I was out of clean work clothes, so I inadvertently look stunning in a form fitting little back dress and boots that H has always found incredibly hot.

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And on a completely unrelated note -- I signed up for a personal dressing website that chooses clothes for you online. I got my first delivery this morning. The note from the stylist said, "this blue and black top would look super cute with jeans and heals for a date night."

The irony is not lost on me. At all.