Part 10 - Contents may prove volatile

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Hi all

part 9 was about to lock so part 10, double digits...well, yay?

So status.... Recap .... Oh see above my hearts not in it to recap it all tonight.

Been I'll for 2 1/2 days but ventured out this evening to get groceries. Splurged on a new cozy throw for the sofa which I'm under now (the throw....not the sofa). Still fighting a headache but showered, eaten tonight, changed the bed base sheet again as I'd spent another 24 hours in there and I have a thing about having fresh bedding.

Nothing from w since Sunday so glad I wasn't dying in bed or bft would have eaten me by now.

Couple of friends pinged me asking was I thinking about getting on match or zoosk or similar... Honestly I don't know. Huge chunk of me wants to think about it if for no other reason that loneliness is biting right now, up to Sunday evening I'd have said I'll stand though but as I mentioned in the last thread I found out something I've since confirmed that tends to say chances of reconciling are currently slim to none, trouble is without really compromising w's privacy can't really go into it which is painful as I'd love to talk to someone about it but can't.

So yes, back to work tomorrow wfh as no one wants my lurgy. W is supposedly seeing her friend from college this weekend but hasn't yet confirmed with me what's happening or what days. Other than that its a cold dark Wednesday feeling better but still fairly ugh snuggling in my fuzzy throw. No alcohol while I'm poorly though.

Did try to ramp up the detatchment slightly last couple of days as I have a feeling I need to. Changed photos in the house around remaining wedding pic and pics of s, w and I are still about but not as apparent and selecting pics of s to get printed up instead. Can always change them back later.

Toots,v,ganb8te,jim thanks for all the checking on me. Jim asked me some good questions on what's the downside if w and I are done bar coparenting, well that's pretty much the current sitch bar me deciding to give up on the m and stick a toe in the dating pool in some ways it'd be a lot less painful.

I'm trying to avoid mind reading and snooping but I really hope if w is doing what I now suspect w is doing she chooses to talk to me, let's say she has issues to work on but those may exclude me romantically depending on what she decides.

So I'm hoping the thread by the end sees a slightly happier position we shall see