Gogofo - LRT letter - planning a new beginning

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Going to sign receipt of complaint and give back to lawyer. Next step is agreeing to the terms and waiting for the courts.

W and I have had some very emotional talks. She is done, it is sad and hard for me to accept. She holds a lot of anger over the past and feels nothing has changed.

I just need to continue working on myself. I know it is not the end of me, but it hurts. Last year when she felt the same way and walked out I felt my life was going to end, I don't feel that way anymore.

I am going through the process of getting mortgage information and have found a house I want to buy. Once I have my information I can talk to a realtor and start the buying process.

The rope is gone.

I am going to write my LRT letter and decide if I want to give it to her.

It is sad that she feels that the D is the only option, but that is her reality. I don't want it, but I will live through all of this.

My reality is that she is losing someone who would move mountains for her and is a really great guy, etc.

I would like our realities to align one day again because I really do love her, but that is out of any of our control right now.

Onward and upward as me, the soon to be divorced father of two amazing boys. I am sad and excited at the same time.

I planned this next step to be done while holding my W's hand. I know I am strong enough to walk alone, I just need to practice not turning around to see where she is going.