WAW Affair admitted

[Ontheup]

Hey complex

Im still struggling with the deaching and GAL mainly because we have D8 and she is the most important thing to us. So its impossible for me to being going out every night to gym etc as I do still have to take care of her. she doesnt know what is going on and i dont want het to until the time is right

I have though gone back to work at the office more days rather than staying at home. Started ice skating with my daughter , take my daughter horse riding.
I am being civil with my wife and friendly expecially when daughter is around and just trying to be as normal as possible but im no longer sat there chatting to her about what is going on in her life like we were. No more texts during the day unless she texts me relating to D. No more calling her during teh day
Right up to the point of BD we were still best friends. She wanted best of both worlds. My wife is only going to realise she has lost her best friend when i have gone. I will be freindly and civil for our daughters sake but thats it. Im still not sure in my mind that i actually want her back. I think at the moment a lot of it has to do with my ego. It will be tough going forward especially on my D but it is what it is. My wife thinks there is happiness over the rainbow somewhere. We all know in reality that isnt true. Her affair will not stop as they own a business together. Not easy to distance yourself from OM. As it stands she isnt prepared to give her business up. I must move on.