I detached years ago. I can't really pin point why. I think a lot of my frustration was due to a lack of "physical activity". I don't mean running or mountain biking.

She has always been very reserved in that area and I never felt a strong connection. However, since all this has unfolded, that has changed dramatically. I'm stupid, I know why it has changed. I'm okay with that most of the time. However I do not want to be in an open marriage and she doesn't either (I don't think).

Detaching was just easier than begging for sex. I wish I had realized then that becoming closer, talking, being interested in her was easier than detaching AND begging.

M:42 W:43
T:14 M:10
S:9 D:5
W filed 12/22/14
EA 12/31/14
PA 4/10/15
D final 5/13/15