Amy, I haven't been here for long ('years'). I see that you posted yesterday & understand the need for feedback & support. Eventually someone more experienced than myself will get back to you.
When I first came here - Cadet posted links for newbies. Also GAL and reading the DB books help.
I think you need to do some 'kid - free' things for yourself as well, to not always be reminded of those parents who are not faced with an ordeal like this. Continue here - in that, I mean post on the forums to vent/journal. You may need to start in 'newcomers'. That was the mistake I made when I first came on.
I am sorry I coudln't be of more help - but keep coming back. The others will soon respond.
p.
pbetra ---- M: 15 yrs (in 2014) BD: 6/03/2014 Infidelity ('known' from July 2014) Denied PA Feb 2015 2 leave Mar 2015 (left early Summer). Some contact. Back briefly 2017 (after family death) Separated 2017