barely holding on - 7

[u-turn]

As I think more about the fact that I have been enabling her, it becomes more embarrassing. Not a very manly thing to do. But I was doing it thinking it would end in time. yeesh. No matter what I read here and in the books, I thought my situation was different. I thought - no she couldn't actually have changed that much - we wouldn't do this to each other - it is only temporary and I'll be ready when she comes back. We will get through this.

This is not what we have planned, but it is happening.

I have changed and she is well aware of it. She tried many times to have the normal brush over conversation, but I would not have it. I was very busy in the house yesterday, and almost every time I passed her, she tried, but I stopped listened and left.

This morning, I opened the garage door for her and moved her car out - as I do every morning, because it is very heavy.

I came in said goodbye, and she said - you don't have to do anything nice for me any more (hearing that hurt a little). I responded with the same.