This, in conjunction with his onetime trolling of Craigslist for escorts makes me very concerned.
Oh, it wasn't a onetime thing, raliced. I found emails in 2014 to craigslist escorts that dated back to 2009.
It's funny how I didn't even consider the illegal aspect. You're right, he could be funding this stuff with marital assets...
But I live in a no-fault state. Would a PI do anything in my favor? I'm not knocking that idea down, I honestly have no idea.
I don't even know how to broach the subject of finances with WAH. His income, the income we've been living on solely for the past 7 years, is sporadic because of his industry. Despite my best efforts we've never been able to live on ANY kind of budget. Granted there's no debt but he's a card-swiping man. His last Amex bill was $3,000 and it was almost all food. Anyway, I digress...
I think I'd need to talk to a lawyer to even know what to say to him about money.
I don't even know what to do.
Claire,
IT's good to see you. I've noticed you're not around as much. Stepping away sometimes helps... but it also helps to have the support from people who totally get it.
You hit it on the head with the realization that you're not the one who has lost the most. I'm realizing that, too.
Frankly, I think our D7 has lost the most but I have limited control over that so.... yeah.
But, yes, I'm not sure I've really lost all that much. I have memories of good times, I'm getting past the memories of the horrible times and have no interest in building more of those.
The strange thing is I seriously cannot imagine a man asking me out or dating. I mean, since that switch went off last night, I immediately realized I am not and I dont' want to be emotionally attached to WAH.
The idea that all the things I always wanted with WAH - connection, true love, respect, honor, loyalty, devotion, shared sense of humor and drive... I could have these things and it wouldn't be a fairytale. Men have these things to offer. Right? I'm not silly to hope for that one day. I know I want it and I know I deserve it...
I also know WAH has no desire to provide those things. They're just not in his nature and never have been. It's not like we lost our connection... we never really had one. Honestly. I'm not just saying that because I'm hurt. I'm serious.
I am definitely not the one who is losing the most. Definitely not.
