I'll take MLC for $1000, Alex...

[wishing, hoping]

Hello all

Time for me to check in and let you all know how things are going.

I am still with NG. Things are moving forward and are still great. There is talk of possibly moving in together. I have broached the subject with the kids and as long as they can still go to the same school they are fine with it. My kids and his kids get along so well. It's as if they are related. I hate to sound schmoopy but it really does seem like one big happy family.

A few months ago I introduced NG to J. NG came to D's dance performance and when NG walked in with his kids I greeted him with a hug and a kiss. J's jaw just dropped. But he greeted NG with a handshake and a fake smile. J sat on the opposite end of the row from us. : ))) A few days later NG asked me why I ever married J? He said he seems to be the polar opposite from anyone you would ever chose to be with??? I said he didn't use to be like that. I explained that J was not the guy I thought he was and that people change. I said if J would have been like that when I met him I would have had nothing to do with him. Hindsight: 20/20.

J and OW got married this past weekend. It was strange when I picked the kids up last night and saw that ring back on J's finger. Albeit a new ring, but a ring none the less. I have to be honest and admit it stung a bit. And I don't get it because I don't want him back, but seeing that ring brought back a lot. And then there was OW going on and on about how many bobby pins she had in her hair. Like I give a sh*t!! She told the hairdresser she didn't care how many bobby pins she had to wear or how much torture she had to endure and even if the hairdresser drew blood she wasn't going to complain. I wanted to tell her to get used to that notion if she's going to be married to J. But that's her cross to bear now.

Turns out no one from J's family came to the wedding except his alcoholic brother and his lush wife. No friends came except my former next door neighbors. Not sure why they chose to go. I was always under the impression they didn't care much for J and OW. But that is none of my business. My stepson and S stood up with J and S had to give a last-minute speech. He made something up off the cuff. I thought that was a pretty crappy thing to do to a 14 year old.

So my journey with J is officially done. He is OW's problem now and I have been released. There are still moments I wish J and OW would get what I feel they deserve, but I am trying to let it go completely, because neither one of them are worth another moment of my time.

WH