The last thread was one of serious growth and stability for me.
I've had a couple days of setbacks but not 10,000 steps back, just 2-3 and just inside myself, not necessarily on my sitch... Which is unchanged anyways so...
I want to get back where I was... Grounded, solid, strong, clear in thought, detached, etc.
I had a terrible day with D. I mean TERRIBLE. It really shook me to the core and has me all worked up. We were having a GREAT January as far as her behavior goes... And just when I start to lean back and think we've turned a corner... A day like today happens. OMG.
So, tomorrow starts my recommitment to building myself into who I want to be. I'm finding I'm ok with doing the internal work but not so good at the external work, the dream chasing (do I have dreams?), the signing up for courses, the acquiring of the job I want/need. I'm stuck in that department.
Really stuck there.
I want to thank you all for your support and guidance. Really.
