Yet you are mindreading everything he is doing or saying..every text, every time his car isn’t there.
Sometimes we do things like that because of the pain caused. Kind of like PTSD. But it always keeps us un-detached (said with a French accent for effect)
Let's face it, it's easier when he's gone. When he's not there and asking about you etc.
It's hard to compartmentalize when you feel like they are breathing down your neck. I've been there. My ex lives a few blocks away with her husband. They harass me all the time, although it's been a few months this time. My fingers are crossed that it won't happen again, but who knows? What I do know is that you can detach even with him crawling all over you like that.
He made his choices. He divorced you. End of conversation. Or at least, it should have been right? But in this case, he's as confused as ever. You're not. You're just going through the process (faster) again. This time it'll be better for you.
In the meantime, keep at the meditation and gain that perspective. Keep up the exercise. Keep up the PMA.
And try not to forget your children need you. Can you imagine how they are handling this the second go-round? They are keeping it under wraps to be sure, but your daughter gave you a major clue as to what she wanted. Even money it's what your son wanted too. But they can clearly see what he is doing and know what it means to you.
They need you more than anyone else does right now, mama. Don't lose sight of that. You'll be glad you didn't.
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
