And We Danced All Night to the Best Song Ever...

[Georgiabelle]

Thanks BK and Eric. I am grateful for you both listening to me babble. Eric, I don't love the thought of you- I love that you call my Kim
Kardashian like a$$ out on my caca :-). I am contemplating what you said and this is where I am... The idea of being naked with anyone right now disgusts and repulses me. So much for last weeks' shenanigans of wanting the sexay times.

I feel like gum on the bottom of a not very cute pair of shoes. Perhaps a pair of flats. I don't wear flats. I'm not sure what my deal is but I'm feeling kind of down. As in if Ryan Gosling knocked on the door, I don't know of I would answer. S4 turns 5 tomorrow and I'm not sure why I'm so sad..... Blah is a better word. I want to curl up in a ball and hide for a few days or weeks. Can't do that. Have my annual conference later this week so I'll be away for 6 days.

Maybe it's all of the valentine's stuff I see? Don't know as I've never really celebrated that. I am envious of those that say they are "anxious" or "ready" to date. I'm pretty sure I would welcome water boarding over that. Downer I am right now. Bleeeech! Actually, I think some stems from my last conversation with my mom a couple of weeks ago when she said that "she was ready for me to date." Wtf? I've never discussed dating a day in my life with my mother. For those of you that follow along, I'm the one who never told anyone I was getting married, got married , and I never announced my 3rd pregnancy. I assumed everyone figured I hadn't swallowed a watermelon. I told my parents when I was about 5 months along with my first. I didn't announce my divorce either. I am very private about my life (except here).

Then my mother told my brother, if she could just pick who I dated she would do a good job. Holy he!! no !!!! My mother would pick a man who was socially inept, living in his mother's basement , had 3 eyes, and had not seen sunlight since Clinton was in office. Oh and he would sweat incessantly and have 9 chins. What is wrong with her? I'm being dramatic I know.

Hope everyone is well and sorry to be an expired glass of milk.