I'm just utterly gutted right now :(

[Frank75]

Frank, you may think she is not typical, but her behavior is so common in WAW who drops the bomb and the H is having a meltdown. "Everything will be fine, you'll see. (give a hug or kiss, like she is mothering him) Look, we are still going to be the best of friends, ok? Come on, I'll fix you something to eat, and you'll start feeling better."

I'm still waiting for my books. I'm just in a very negative space right now. I realize she's trying to smooth my transition over into being single, that's what makes it even harder. She walled off her heart and I totally forgot this person existed. It hurts so bad seeing it again.

But on the other hand she sees me in total despair and she asks me if i want to go looking at apartments tomorrow. This plan has been a long time coming and it took her tremendous amounts of energy to finally do it, so now it's a big sigh of relief to her that this is out there and she just doesn't want to deal with it (or me) anymore. It's such a horrible feeling.

I read an article the other day, I forget where, that said something like "men don't really hear talking, action is their language and that's why when the unhappy wife finally comes out and wants a divorce, men finally realize the scope of the issues". That's me in a nutshell