Oh I agree Jefe, I do feel a sense of wanting to punish.
I don't know how to move past that feeling. It feels as though he has had no consequences for his actions and I am the one who gets screwed for his actions. I guess (and maybe this makes me a bad person and I need to change this about myself) but I want him to have consequences for his choices.
Let's just say for a moment he hasn't had any consequences, zero. He's done bad stuff and gotten off scott free. You're carrying the hurt, anger, resentment. You want to make sure he really knows he hurt you. I mean, you just want to kick him in the groin. The fact that he's attempting to be kind right now, even "lying" about it is insulting, right?
Now, what if you reached out in love and just said "thank you"? You can't really get hurt by a cup of coffee, can you? I mean, even if he totally lied about how he got it, it's still a cup of coffee. You don't even have to forgive any of the other stuff. You don't have to trust him on any other subject. You can still be angry and hurt. Just be loving on this one, tiny act. Nothing else.
Would you be willing to try that?
Me 47 - W 35 M 9 - T 10 2 Daughters - 7 & 9 Discovery of EA- 8/4/14 S - 8/5/15 D mentioned - 9/11/14 R & Piecing - 3/17/15 Regard one another as more important than yourselves. - Philippians 2:3
