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[Panthr]

I feel like I'm turning the corner on detachment or at least I hope I am. In spirit of GAL, I texted W saying I'm going to happy hour tonight and woulbe going out tomorrow after the kids were in bed. All I really did was see a movie. I was so stressed about coming home and the tension that would be there on her part including her ignoring me which was the case. Anyways, after the kids were in bed -- the youngest still up with me - she said she was going out. I just said okay and realized I wasn' t stressed about and for first time. Now that may change but not feeling the pain or stress right now but all of our emotions fluctuate minute to minute on this board. Shes probably going overv OM (EA) house at this time. I think what made me feel better is she is in this tit-for-tat mode, very petty. Like I said earlier. I think she's trying to 180 me. I'm seeing her almost from a pity standpoint. Earlier on FB she made a comment about there being an indoor adult pool that serves drinks and how excited she was and they had to go. If she were 25 I'd think thats cool but shes 38 with two kids and it seems pathetic now and trying to hard.