Strong EA after 2yrs M - trying to detach. #3

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Ya I agree on everything. No way I'll talk 'bad' about my W.
And actually after doing more soul searching she hasn't even done that much wrong, sounds crazy. I forgive her already.

Some of the things in our marriage weren't meant to be. We both didn't put enough effort in. Love got lost and then she was wide open for temptation while I didn't take this thing serious enough.I mean it's adultery, she sinned, ya, but giving the circumstances...we are humans after all and I HAVE to forgive. Of course it was disrespectful and its just horrible, but I'm more SAD than mad. How everything came down it's so terribly sad that it came that far. But it was inevitable.

God hates divorce, but I also don't want to save my M bc it's M, I want it to be real and do what I promised, even if I fail.
Then at least I can move on in peace with myself....and I think my W knows all of this too. She is a good human being..but it's become a very stressful situation for us.
Again thank you all for your support here. I'll keep blogging and bother you with my emotional ups and downs