Strong EA after 2yrs M - trying to detach. #3

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W's mom is coming next week. I will 'cover up' for S of course. Put the sheets out of the guestroom and pretend. Better than exposing anything I suppose. I'll play along, I did for a while already.
How did you handle this? Did you just cover up the S?
Did some R soul-searching yesterday, by that I mean I tried to dig deeper what I actually did wrong and why W and our M went that path so I can act accordingly... My heart was actually closed too through the pain it was a selfish love of mine.
I get a clear picture of reconciliation scenarios, and they are far far away. But it's fine. I feel better moving on. There's absolutely nothing that would change anything so soon.