I make your words mine. They are beautiful and I too believe that it is all worthy. It's probably the most amazing touch of a human being, that we hurt because we feel.
My M had great moments, it was a real family with a lot of joy. We did not have many problems and we did not even fight much. Our kids are good young men, we built a lot for two people that started with almost nothing. Always when possible we had meals together.
And the reason we got so apart is just life's design with one sickness after another, kids growing and the stress of so many things to do, work stress, money stress.
And now, I can see a little more clear that the opportunity present itself and H showed his weakness. There were opportunities to me but I always had my head on my M. Never consider to escape in some adventure. I feel good I never did, it was my choice and I am proud of it.
Yes, I am letting go the fear. I keep thinking about 25 and her posts, so much to learn from her. I will face life with good attitude, I am a bright and smart person and I know I will do it.
I am glad I hurt, the love inside me is so giant that it hurts beautifully.
