My waking nightmare

[Lorelai]

The glass was on the counter and I knocked it off. I am not at all using this as an excuse, but shortly after I had my first baby, this unexplainable feeling of anger overcame me. I was appalled by the feeling and the behaviors that came with it and went to a psychiatrist and saw my OBGYN and they both agreed I had a problem with my hormones, particularly close to my cycle (I feel so embarrassed telling a man this!) but H has never bought it. He thinks there is a flaw in my personality. We went ahead and had our second baby anyway, and my OB was so concerned about the possible hormone issues he kept me in the hospital for a week after my c-section. My fear (which I don't have anymore!) of not being on medicine made me resist it at first, but I did finally go on it after my postpartum checkup when my OB said "You're going to have to go on medication. I can see the depression on your face." But while my H acknowledged the improvements after the medication, it was way too late at that point.