So to add insult to injury I got a DUI 2 days ago. Brother was in town and met him for dinner and a conversation. Spent about 3 hours with him and went home. No I wasn't drowning my sorrows. Got pulled over for failure to use a turn signal while changing lanes. This has hit me extremely hard because my anxiety levels are through the roof!! W and I met with our counselor yesterday and she is going to do some intense individual preservation, 3 days a week. Then in 3 weeks bring us in as a couple to see where things stand. I'm really looking FWD to it! Also, which was a shock, W told our neighbor what's been going on. From the affair to getting hospitalized. Our neighbor is our Pastor. He reached out to me and offered some counseling. I happily accepted and will be talking to him today. He's a friend, our neighbor more than our Pastor so words of peace and devotion are better than what I'm feeling. I've been reading DB now for a couple of days and taking lots of notes. Setting goals and detaching from W. Trying to be her friend, a father and that's all for now. Trying not to set myself up for failure. When I think things are starting to look better, they backfire and I lash out. I need stop setting myself up!!!
Thank you all for your support this far!!! I know it's going to be a long road and I'm trying my hardest but when your brain shuts down and loses direction its SOOO hard to get back on track.
