Yep, Bea, I hear ya.

I was angry and it was more for my benefit than his. I vented on him.

I really need to step back now.

He did draw me in...much too easily.

I did what I needed...He knows how I feel. Now, back the eff off Heather.

And, from a scientific standpoint :-) I could see the fog rolling in on my own brain as the convo continued today.

I started off fairly grounded, accepting of what is, yadda...

Then, after talking to him, by focus shifted...began feeling driven to give him more and more information...unnecessarily and undeserved at this point.

That little girl got all jazzed up. Grown up Heather needs to sit that little girl down and give her a craft to work on.

Meanwhile, nothing has changed.

We've been through this a million times. Smokey has a moment of clarity and feels sorry for his actions...more likely, feels sorry for the consequences of his actions.

If it's a legit awakening, he needs to do the heavy lifting anyway. I can't help it along or fix it.

Other stuff to do.


"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man

“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson