pain meds, depression, separation turning bad

[gan]

Well I basically could have written all that, as well. Girl, you camping out in my head or something?

Yes, I do feel like we're in a bit of a dilemma being in our mid-thirties and suddenly single when only months ago we were thinking about starting a family. LRT is all good and fine...but meanwhile the clock is ticking (or so we're told). This really bothered me earlier on.

It's interesting though, this whole experience has made me really question if I wanted children...or if I wanted children with H. I now realise it was the latter. I wanted to see him be a father - I think he'd be great at it. My desire to have children has gone way down since we separated.

An older, single lady acquaintence of mine has been looking into IVF using a donor. She's decided she's going to go ahead and have a baby herself. I think it is great that she's taking things into her own hands, but that's not a path I would choose.