Wasn't quite ready to start a new thread but my old thread ^^^ locked.
I'm still feeling extremely confused and find myself having thoughts don't have any place in my life right now.
I feel I have made a lot of progress but not enough at the same time. I'm kind of stuck in the "what should I be doing" mode. What I'm doing seems to be working as far as how we're getting along but not sure about anything else. Yesterday he was really excited and wanted to show me the new parts he got for the jeep and today he asked how much money he owed me for the table I picked up for him.
On a positive note my friend and I are really starting to work back into a running distance that we used to run without a problem. Trying to let go of all my regrets in life (not just in my relationship) and quitting running and working out is high on the list of regrets.
Couple of quotes need to embed into my head along with the serenity prayer I say probably 20 times a day!
"The past is like an anchor holding us back. You have to let go of who you are to become who you will be."
"You can't tell what tomorrow will bring and you can't change the past. So just live today."
"The past is exactly that the past. You can't change it so why sit there and dwell on it like you can? You gotta move on. Work on the future you...."
Me-44 (45) H- 50 (51) M-'96
S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)
BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas) home Oct(sep rooms) (EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed) insists wants D through July 2015 no more talk of D since
